my true feelings..

hyeee guysss~ how is everyone? its been a long time since my last post isnt it? well for today, im gonna write in malay since im very frustrated, disappointed and sad over someone..well here goes..

(lets called them A, B, and C..)

benda ni baru je jd..dlm grup ak ade la beberape member termasok A, B, C..biasa la kan, klu da kwn tu, msti skali skala gadoh tp sbb da member, kte msti nk bantu dorg utk berbaik balik..so bila ak tgk B disisihkan A dgn C atas sbb few mistakes, ak kesian la tgk die sorg2..ak xley nk follow dorg since ktorg fakulti lain2..so B ni slalu la cari ak, and ak x kesah pn..ak sndiri enjoy kuar 'dating' dgn die..sbb da member kn, ak try la intervene antara dorg ni..pujuk B berbaik balik dgn A & C..pujuk C berbaik balik dgn B..tp somehow A mmg xnk lgsg dgr nasihat..ak pn x paham la die ni..kte da kawan nk 6 tahun, ni pn xkn la xley berbaik balik..ak suka betol ayat ni, "FORGIVE AND FORGET"..yela, wat pe nk bergadoh lama2 kn..kte da kwn lama kot..

in the end, B dgn C boleh la berbaik balik tp somehow dorg awkard..yess i cant deny that sbb da gadoh, things sometimes wont get to the way it was..tp bnde ni klu dibiar lama2, buat baik, lama2 okayy la tu..tp yg A ni da keras kepala, keras hati sgt2 smpi xley nk berbaik dgn B..smpi ak org yg xde kne mengena ni pn die nk mengamok..kata ak xde hak utk masok campor, ak da start talk behind her back la bagai..WHAT THE HELL LA! kte ni da la member satu grup, of kos la 2 org gadoh, friendship geng kte terjejas!!! ak try pujuk korg berbaik, ni yg ak dpt dari kau? kau tu da benci sgt ke dgn B smpi xley nk maaf kan die walaupn die da try nk berbaik balik dgn kau? yess i dont know the whole stories but ak buat ni utk kebaikan kte semua, utk friendship geng kte jugakk! tp kau yg tolak semua tu!

tgk skrg ape da jadi?? ak yg xde kne mngena dgn pergaduhan korg ni, kau tolak ak tepi! kau tolak geng2 kau ke tepi except C ni!! ape ktorg buat dgn kau hah selain try pujuk kau jgn nk bermusuh sgt? igt kau tu bagus sgt ke? skrg kau nak kawen pn xnk bgtau ktorg..smpi mcm tu skali kau benci dgn ktorg?? after all these years kte berkawan, mcm ni skali kau buat ktorg? ak sedih and kecewa dgn perangai kau yg da berubah ni..

yg C ni pn sama..ktorg yg xde pape dgn kau, kau boleh pulak nk berahsia dr ktorg psl wedding A ni..ktorg tak expect pn A nk ajak, tp kau nk rahsia sgt nape? kau paham tak perasaan ktorg dpt tau berita ni dr orang lain yg even most of us tak kenal pn?! especially ak yg dok sebelah blok kau je ni..kau kata kau diberi amanah utk jaga rahsia ni tp kau pernah terpikir tak, sebelum kau terima amanah ni, kau try pujuk A jgn smpi berita ni pn nk berahsia dr ktorg? pernah tak terpikir kau boleh je tolak amanah tu sblm terima sbb benda ni boleh merenggangkan lg keadaan? tapi taaakkk..kau nak jugak simpan rahsia die, even ak yg kau jmpe beberapa hari sblm hari die nikah kau tak bgtau..die da la dok sebelah taman je uni ni!! ak lg sedih sbb dpt tau die nikah and ak ade je kat sini..ak sgt kecewa dgn tindakan kau utk berahsia dr ktorg..kau boleh tipu depan muka ak sndiri yg kau kata kau xtau ape2 psl wedding die..ak igt kau still lg geng ktorg sbb kau je la yg boleh connect kn ktorg dgn die..rupa2 nya tak..kau pilih die lg..ak paham kau tersepit tp ape kau buat ni boleh dikira merosakkakn lg keadaan..

haisshh ntah la..keadaan skrg mmg da terok..geng ak da berpecah.."BEST FRIENDS FOREVER"..xtau la term tu A paham ke tak..to keep that phrase true, kte kne la berusaha utk mempertahankan friendship kte..tp kau give up halfway..susah senang sepatot nye kte harungi bersama tp kau tolak ktorg ke tepi, kau GIVE UP dgn ktorg..if gadoh melibatkan duit ke, laki ke, ak paham la jugak, ak pn xnk kwn mcm tu..tp semua nye sbb MISUNDERSTANDING, kau give up teros..term FORGIVE AND FORGET kne la selari dgn term BFF tu sbb kte nk berusaha maintain friendship kte..tp kau nk jugakk berdendam dgn ktorg..ak wish kau congrats pn kau xnk reply langsung, a single THANK YOU would be suffice..but noooo, kau da read msg ak, ak pulaukan ak sbb kau berdendam and bermusuh dgn ak kan..

so whatever la..kau xnk ktorg dlm idop kau, ktorg pn da tak ingin kwn mcm kau dlm idop ktorg..utk C pulak, kau da dikira betrayed trust ak terhadap kau..so jgn salah kn ak if things will not be the way it was..kau pn salah satu punca A gadoh dgn ak..

skrg ak rasa sgt kecewa dan sedih dgn A & C..apa yg ak kata ni simply ape yg ak rasa..i may be right, i may be wrong as well..nobody is perfect..lantak la ape jd..eventually time will heal the wound in my heart, and may one day accept/trust both of you again in the future..i hope a day where we all be laughing back together will come someday..

5 Anime Reviews..

helloooo there..how r u guys? last week was a hectic week for me..so full with tests and projects need to be done..so now im freeeee...well not really, still have Final Year Project needs to be done..but for now, like i promised a while ago, i would write reviews on anime/manga/drama/movies rite..so for now, i'll write 5 anime reviews..


1. Kaichou wa Maid-sama

this anime i think very suitable for any age..well 13 years above..the story is focus on the life of Ayuzawa Misaki, a strict President of Student Council at Seika Highschool where most students, especially boys were very afraid of her. but unbeknownst to other students, she works part-time at a maid cosplay cafe, Maid Latte. keeping this secret from others, suddenly one day, a popular male student from her school, Usui Takumi discovered her secret. the story continues mainly around their love story, which is very cute. this anime is recommended to those who's looking for a love story. even those who doesnt like anime should watch this..

2. Chuunibyou

Yūta Togashi is a boy who, during junior high school, suffered from "chūnibyō" (second year middle schooler syndrome), believing that he possesses supernatural powers and dubbing himself the "Dark Flame Master", therefore alienating himself from his classmates. Finding his past embarrassing, Yūta attempts to start off high school where he does not know anyone, free from his old delusions. This proves to be difficult, however, as a delusional girl in his class, Rikka Takanashi, learns of Yūta's past and becomes interested in him. Thus the story progresses as Rikka become more attached to Yūta. (even myself also have this syndrome when i was a child, absorbed into the anime world like Gatekeepers..*OMG it is so embarrassing..*)

3. Golden Time

Tada Banri suffered amnesia due to an accident right after his highschool graduation. he enrolled into private law school in Tokyo but finds himself completely lost after the opening ceremonial event. along the way, he met another lost freshman, Yanagisawa Mitsuo and immediately became friends. Somehow arriving at their intended goal just in time, there appears in front of them a beautiful girl holding a bouquet of roses, who congratulates Mitsuo on getting into the school then hits him across the face with them before tossing the bouquet into his lap and leaving. This stylish, well dressed, and obsessive woman is his childhood friend, Kōko Kaga. the story evolves around Banri's life, finding his love as well as his lost memories.

4. Kotoura-san

Haruka Kotoura is a girl who was born with the ability to read minds. Due to being unable to tell the difference between people's words and thoughts at a young age, she would inadvertently expose people's secrets, leading her to be ridiculed by her classmates and even abandoned by her parents. This had led her to become closed off from others in fear of hurting herself and others. This all changes, however, when she transfers into a new high school and meets Yoshihisa Manabe, a dim-witted boy with a perverted imagination. Unfazed by Haruka's ability to read minds, Yoshihisa offers her his friendship and vows to stand by her no matter what. Together, they join their school's ESP Research Society.

5. Toradora!

Toradora!'s story begins with the male protagonist Ryūji Takasu who is frustrated at trying to look his best as he enters his second year of high school. Despite his gentle personality, his eyes make him look like an intimidating delinquent, so he feels utterly hopeless about his chances of getting a girlfriend anytime soon, and does not have many close friends either. After being greeted by his hungover mother in the morning, Ryūji goes to school and is happy to find that he gets to be in the same class with his best friend Yūsaku Kitamura and a girl he has a crush on, Minori Kushieda. However, it is then that he unexpectedly knocks into "the school's most dangerous animal of the highest risk level"—Taiga Aisaka—who just happens to also be in his class, and is a good friend of Minori.

well thats 5 anime reviews/summary..all of this anime is romantic comedy genre that i strongly recommended..mostly anime i watched are romantic comedy genre..im very particular in choosing anime, since i'll watch the anime if the graphics and art-style suits my taste..haha..i believed no. 1 and no. 5 are high-rated anime, a very popular one..

well thats all from me for now..these anime i really recommended for those who are looking for romantic comedy story..next time, mangas~ do come back later..have a nice day..

3 years later..

uwaaaahhhh!! its almost 3 years since my last post..somehow i forgot about this blogspot and lost the interest to write anymore..haha..sorry bout that..well its not like anyone would read my post right? *wink*

well in 3 years time period, sure A LOT had happened..there're just too much to tell, even i cant summarised it up..so what happened in 3 years u ask me?? hmm lemme think..

1st i think i have grown more mature..well im just kidding..i cant judge myself, so it depends what others see in me..one thing im sure is that i really 'have grown'..literally..physically..well not in heights..if u know what i mean..*sigh* i think its time to hit the gym dontcha think?

now im in my last semester of my Bachelor in Civil Engineering..less than 4 weeks, i'll finish my study..to tell u the truth, im actually freaking out right now, bcoz i dunno what im gonna do with my life..i dunno how am i suppose to enter the next stage in life..this stage of life, where u determine ur life, ur job, get married, having kids, having a family, commitment and everything..it scares the hell out of me! i dunno if im ready for all that..for all my life, i've seen people grow up, having jobs, family and everything..but i never thought about that in my own life before..and now, im at the borderline of this new stage and im afraid to cross it..whatever it is, life must go on, and someday, i may need to enter that stage, whether i like it or not..whether im ready or not..

well one thing for sure that im still havent grow yet..my childish part where i love anime and manga..i dunno if i can give up this hobby of mine..like people said, 'cartoon, anime, manga, comic, etc are for kids!'..i may give up on this interest someday..when i 'have fully grown up'..when is that? probably when i got married..if he has the same interests as i do, i may have to postpone to forget about anime all that, until i have kids..hahaha..

i think its enough for this post..its long enough and it boring..haha..next post, i'll be sure to write reviews on any movies/dramas/mangas/animes i watched so far..when i have free time..and when i have the mood to write again..*wink*..so feel free to drop by my blog~