my true feelings..

hyeee guysss~ how is everyone? its been a long time since my last post isnt it? well for today, im gonna write in malay since im very frustrated, disappointed and sad over someone..well here goes..

(lets called them A, B, and C..)

benda ni baru je jd..dlm grup ak ade la beberape member termasok A, B, C..biasa la kan, klu da kwn tu, msti skali skala gadoh tp sbb da member, kte msti nk bantu dorg utk berbaik balik..so bila ak tgk B disisihkan A dgn C atas sbb few mistakes, ak kesian la tgk die sorg2..ak xley nk follow dorg since ktorg fakulti lain2..so B ni slalu la cari ak, and ak x kesah pn..ak sndiri enjoy kuar 'dating' dgn die..sbb da member kn, ak try la intervene antara dorg ni..pujuk B berbaik balik dgn A & C..pujuk C berbaik balik dgn B..tp somehow A mmg xnk lgsg dgr nasihat..ak pn x paham la die ni..kte da kawan nk 6 tahun, ni pn xkn la xley berbaik balik..ak suka betol ayat ni, "FORGIVE AND FORGET"..yela, wat pe nk bergadoh lama2 kn..kte da kwn lama kot..

in the end, B dgn C boleh la berbaik balik tp somehow dorg awkard..yess i cant deny that sbb da gadoh, things sometimes wont get to the way it was..tp bnde ni klu dibiar lama2, buat baik, lama2 okayy la tu..tp yg A ni da keras kepala, keras hati sgt2 smpi xley nk berbaik dgn B..smpi ak org yg xde kne mengena ni pn die nk mengamok..kata ak xde hak utk masok campor, ak da start talk behind her back la bagai..WHAT THE HELL LA! kte ni da la member satu grup, of kos la 2 org gadoh, friendship geng kte terjejas!!! ak try pujuk korg berbaik, ni yg ak dpt dari kau? kau tu da benci sgt ke dgn B smpi xley nk maaf kan die walaupn die da try nk berbaik balik dgn kau? yess i dont know the whole stories but ak buat ni utk kebaikan kte semua, utk friendship geng kte jugakk! tp kau yg tolak semua tu!

tgk skrg ape da jadi?? ak yg xde kne mngena dgn pergaduhan korg ni, kau tolak ak tepi! kau tolak geng2 kau ke tepi except C ni!! ape ktorg buat dgn kau hah selain try pujuk kau jgn nk bermusuh sgt? igt kau tu bagus sgt ke? skrg kau nak kawen pn xnk bgtau ktorg..smpi mcm tu skali kau benci dgn ktorg?? after all these years kte berkawan, mcm ni skali kau buat ktorg? ak sedih and kecewa dgn perangai kau yg da berubah ni..

yg C ni pn sama..ktorg yg xde pape dgn kau, kau boleh pulak nk berahsia dr ktorg psl wedding A ni..ktorg tak expect pn A nk ajak, tp kau nk rahsia sgt nape? kau paham tak perasaan ktorg dpt tau berita ni dr orang lain yg even most of us tak kenal pn?! especially ak yg dok sebelah blok kau je ni..kau kata kau diberi amanah utk jaga rahsia ni tp kau pernah terpikir tak, sebelum kau terima amanah ni, kau try pujuk A jgn smpi berita ni pn nk berahsia dr ktorg? pernah tak terpikir kau boleh je tolak amanah tu sblm terima sbb benda ni boleh merenggangkan lg keadaan? tapi taaakkk..kau nak jugak simpan rahsia die, even ak yg kau jmpe beberapa hari sblm hari die nikah kau tak bgtau..die da la dok sebelah taman je uni ni!! ak lg sedih sbb dpt tau die nikah and ak ade je kat sini..ak sgt kecewa dgn tindakan kau utk berahsia dr ktorg..kau boleh tipu depan muka ak sndiri yg kau kata kau xtau ape2 psl wedding die..ak igt kau still lg geng ktorg sbb kau je la yg boleh connect kn ktorg dgn die..rupa2 nya tak..kau pilih die lg..ak paham kau tersepit tp ape kau buat ni boleh dikira merosakkakn lg keadaan..

haisshh ntah la..keadaan skrg mmg da terok..geng ak da berpecah.."BEST FRIENDS FOREVER"..xtau la term tu A paham ke tak..to keep that phrase true, kte kne la berusaha utk mempertahankan friendship kte..tp kau give up halfway..susah senang sepatot nye kte harungi bersama tp kau tolak ktorg ke tepi, kau GIVE UP dgn ktorg..if gadoh melibatkan duit ke, laki ke, ak paham la jugak, ak pn xnk kwn mcm tu..tp semua nye sbb MISUNDERSTANDING, kau give up teros..term FORGIVE AND FORGET kne la selari dgn term BFF tu sbb kte nk berusaha maintain friendship kte..tp kau nk jugakk berdendam dgn ktorg..ak wish kau congrats pn kau xnk reply langsung, a single THANK YOU would be suffice..but noooo, kau da read msg ak, ak pulaukan ak sbb kau berdendam and bermusuh dgn ak kan..

so whatever la..kau xnk ktorg dlm idop kau, ktorg pn da tak ingin kwn mcm kau dlm idop ktorg..utk C pulak, kau da dikira betrayed trust ak terhadap kau..so jgn salah kn ak if things will not be the way it was..kau pn salah satu punca A gadoh dgn ak..

skrg ak rasa sgt kecewa dan sedih dgn A & C..apa yg ak kata ni simply ape yg ak rasa..i may be right, i may be wrong as well..nobody is perfect..lantak la ape jd..eventually time will heal the wound in my heart, and may one day accept/trust both of you again in the future..i hope a day where we all be laughing back together will come someday..

5 Anime Reviews..

helloooo there..how r u guys? last week was a hectic week for me..so full with tests and projects need to be done..so now im freeeee...well not really, still have Final Year Project needs to be done..but for now, like i promised a while ago, i would write reviews on anime/manga/drama/movies rite..so for now, i'll write 5 anime reviews..


1. Kaichou wa Maid-sama

this anime i think very suitable for any age..well 13 years above..the story is focus on the life of Ayuzawa Misaki, a strict President of Student Council at Seika Highschool where most students, especially boys were very afraid of her. but unbeknownst to other students, she works part-time at a maid cosplay cafe, Maid Latte. keeping this secret from others, suddenly one day, a popular male student from her school, Usui Takumi discovered her secret. the story continues mainly around their love story, which is very cute. this anime is recommended to those who's looking for a love story. even those who doesnt like anime should watch this..

2. Chuunibyou

Yūta Togashi is a boy who, during junior high school, suffered from "chūnibyō" (second year middle schooler syndrome), believing that he possesses supernatural powers and dubbing himself the "Dark Flame Master", therefore alienating himself from his classmates. Finding his past embarrassing, Yūta attempts to start off high school where he does not know anyone, free from his old delusions. This proves to be difficult, however, as a delusional girl in his class, Rikka Takanashi, learns of Yūta's past and becomes interested in him. Thus the story progresses as Rikka become more attached to Yūta. (even myself also have this syndrome when i was a child, absorbed into the anime world like Gatekeepers..*OMG it is so embarrassing..*)

3. Golden Time

Tada Banri suffered amnesia due to an accident right after his highschool graduation. he enrolled into private law school in Tokyo but finds himself completely lost after the opening ceremonial event. along the way, he met another lost freshman, Yanagisawa Mitsuo and immediately became friends. Somehow arriving at their intended goal just in time, there appears in front of them a beautiful girl holding a bouquet of roses, who congratulates Mitsuo on getting into the school then hits him across the face with them before tossing the bouquet into his lap and leaving. This stylish, well dressed, and obsessive woman is his childhood friend, Kōko Kaga. the story evolves around Banri's life, finding his love as well as his lost memories.

4. Kotoura-san

Haruka Kotoura is a girl who was born with the ability to read minds. Due to being unable to tell the difference between people's words and thoughts at a young age, she would inadvertently expose people's secrets, leading her to be ridiculed by her classmates and even abandoned by her parents. This had led her to become closed off from others in fear of hurting herself and others. This all changes, however, when she transfers into a new high school and meets Yoshihisa Manabe, a dim-witted boy with a perverted imagination. Unfazed by Haruka's ability to read minds, Yoshihisa offers her his friendship and vows to stand by her no matter what. Together, they join their school's ESP Research Society.

5. Toradora!

Toradora!'s story begins with the male protagonist Ryūji Takasu who is frustrated at trying to look his best as he enters his second year of high school. Despite his gentle personality, his eyes make him look like an intimidating delinquent, so he feels utterly hopeless about his chances of getting a girlfriend anytime soon, and does not have many close friends either. After being greeted by his hungover mother in the morning, Ryūji goes to school and is happy to find that he gets to be in the same class with his best friend Yūsaku Kitamura and a girl he has a crush on, Minori Kushieda. However, it is then that he unexpectedly knocks into "the school's most dangerous animal of the highest risk level"—Taiga Aisaka—who just happens to also be in his class, and is a good friend of Minori.

well thats 5 anime reviews/summary..all of this anime is romantic comedy genre that i strongly recommended..mostly anime i watched are romantic comedy genre..im very particular in choosing anime, since i'll watch the anime if the graphics and art-style suits my taste..haha..i believed no. 1 and no. 5 are high-rated anime, a very popular one..

well thats all from me for now..these anime i really recommended for those who are looking for romantic comedy story..next time, mangas~ do come back later..have a nice day..

3 years later..

uwaaaahhhh!! its almost 3 years since my last post..somehow i forgot about this blogspot and lost the interest to write anymore..haha..sorry bout that..well its not like anyone would read my post right? *wink*

well in 3 years time period, sure A LOT had happened..there're just too much to tell, even i cant summarised it up..so what happened in 3 years u ask me?? hmm lemme think..

1st i think i have grown more mature..well im just kidding..i cant judge myself, so it depends what others see in me..one thing im sure is that i really 'have grown'..literally..physically..well not in heights..if u know what i mean..*sigh* i think its time to hit the gym dontcha think?

now im in my last semester of my Bachelor in Civil Engineering..less than 4 weeks, i'll finish my study..to tell u the truth, im actually freaking out right now, bcoz i dunno what im gonna do with my life..i dunno how am i suppose to enter the next stage in life..this stage of life, where u determine ur life, ur job, get married, having kids, having a family, commitment and everything..it scares the hell out of me! i dunno if im ready for all that..for all my life, i've seen people grow up, having jobs, family and everything..but i never thought about that in my own life before..and now, im at the borderline of this new stage and im afraid to cross it..whatever it is, life must go on, and someday, i may need to enter that stage, whether i like it or not..whether im ready or not..

well one thing for sure that im still havent grow yet..my childish part where i love anime and manga..i dunno if i can give up this hobby of mine..like people said, 'cartoon, anime, manga, comic, etc are for kids!'..i may give up on this interest someday..when i 'have fully grown up'..when is that? probably when i got married..if he has the same interests as i do, i may have to postpone to forget about anime all that, until i have kids..hahaha..

i think its enough for this post..its long enough and it boring..haha..next post, i'll be sure to write reviews on any movies/dramas/mangas/animes i watched so far..when i have free time..and when i have the mood to write again..*wink*..so feel free to drop by my blog~

sewage treatment plant..(-_-')

hyee guys. how are you? 

today, my class had site visit to the sewage treatment plant, a.k.a LOJI! it's for subject 'wastewater engineering'. we got to see up-closed how the sewage get treated. and lemme tell you, the surrounding air was sooooo.......*imagine urselves, coz i cant describe the smell..* ANYWAY, we've learnt how the plant worked, how the sewage get treated. however i didnt listen much myself coz the staff that explained everything only one person, so imagine only one voice must covers our entire class *40++ students*, plus with all the noise. so definitely i cant hear much bout the process. what i did most was taking pics of my classmates. *since i love taking pics of other people*. well, to be truth, im a little sad since there's only pic of me *wait, no pic of me at all! well not in my cam, other cam got few pics of me* nothing to say actually, everything is same-o same-o. sewage, 'interesting smell', walked around, listen to the staff, how the pond work, walked some more...

well then, i think that's all for today. pics tell a lot then words rite? enjoy looking at my pics!

peace y'all!!

  

that's me on the left, fooling around with ahlina in bus, on the way back to the college..

favourite characters..

konbanwa, minna-san!

*good evening, everyone!*

since im in the mood to type, so let's start shall we!

recognize them? yup they're from 'K-ON', from left is tsumugi, ritsu, mio, yui and azusa. 'K-ON" is one of my favourite anime. they're bout friendships of this 5 girls, not to mention their awesome songs! no male characters at all *which i like*. it's all bout friendship, musics, school life. mio is my fav among them, since she got the cool attitude, eventhough she's a scaredy cat. haha. now, onto the drawings, it's cute isn't it? this kind of drawing i like the most. 'K-ON" is one of the anime i recommend the most, even non-anime-lovers should watch it, coz its shows you their passionate bout musics. *after watching this anime, i really wish i know how to play guitar or drums, then form a girls band. it would be awesome rite?!*

well then, onto the topic for today. FAVOURITE CHARACTERS. wanna know my fav characters among all the anime i've watch so far? 

yes these are my top fav characters among all the anime i've watched so far. who are they? from left, liliana, natsuki, saber, tear, inner moka, erza, erica. huh what's that? why i like them so much? well its bcoz they all know how to fight, strong, have cool attitude, long hair, plus their beautiful figure! *really wish had that kind of figure. huhu..* but the top among the top is TEAR GRANT! *middle one* she's from a game actually called tales of the abyss *also my fav ps2 game*.  all of my fav characters are girls *wait im not lesbian ok!*. it's just that i really admired these kind of characters, strong, doesnt depend on people, elegant figure. 

and so there you have it. my top fav characters. my list will change everytime i watch new anime, so they wont be by fav all the time, EXCEPT for tear grant, she'll always be the #1 in my list. ahaks! so then, until next time..

see ya!

p/s: for the next few days, i think im going to talk bout anime, since i already started it yesterday. if you dont like, thats your problem. this is what i love dammit! =D

My Hobby..

hello everyone. hajimemashite? *how do you do?*

do you wanna know what i love to do during my free time??

well this is what i do..*please keep it a secret*  V(^_^)V 

yes this is what i love to do the most! what's that? hanging with friends? no no no. to be honest, i love watching anime. like in the pic above, from left, it's sakura, saber and rin from 'fate stay night' in chibi mode. what's a chibi? it means small size. cute aren't they? to be correct, you can say that im obsessed with anime *yeaahh im confessing here* why? becoz once i've done watching an anime, i'll search for another one. unlike japan, people in my country here sees anime as a cartoon. yes you could say that an anime is a cartoon. BUT! to me, they are different thing. anime is more a real-live person than cartoon.

you know who that is rite? yes it's spongebob. so you can see, anime is like the 1st pic and cartoon is like spongebob. its different rite? from the way they are drawn. well anywho, who like to know more bout anime, just ask mr. google! it's a sad thing, since it's so hard for me to find a girl who love anime like me. here, people said that anime is for kids, not for a grown people, especially a girl like me. but in japan, anime is like a culture to them. they dont discriminate people who loves anime. that's why its hard for me to talk bout anime here, to confess that i love anime, coz they'll think that im still immature for liking a 'cartoon' just like a kid. is it a bad thing for liking an anime? ohh how i wish people wont judge me for liking anime. only my closest friends know that i love anime, but im still having a hard time to talk bout anime with them, watching anime in front of them, admitting i love anime to them. why? becoz if they caught me watching anime, some of them will say, 'tengok kartun la tu!' in a sarcastic tone. i can only smile, say nothing to them, eventhough it hurts me becoz they sound like watching anime is a bad thing. ohh well, whatever people think bout me, that's their problem! this is what i love, and i wont change becoz of what people think!

well i think that's enough for today. it'll take days for me to explain the greatness of anime. haha. i like anime becoz i like looking at the drawings, the perfection of their drawings. i really wish i could draw like them one day. and to my friends, please dont judge badly of me for liking an anime. i love anime, and really hope you can support my love for anime. well then, i'll talk more about anime later, and maybe about seiyuu as well. wanna know what is seiyuu?? let's wait until next post! haha. conclusion for today..

I LOVE ANIME!

AND THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO BOUT IT!

perverts...

hye there. thanks for stopping by. i think my last post was last month rite? since im in the mood to type, so here goes~

actually, im really pissed off rite now. why? becoz i just found out that there's a case near my block where im staying rite now, a guy taking pictures of girl's bathing! plus, few days ago, my friends and few girls just saw a guy stole girl's underwear! *x sure underwear or pkaian kt ampaian* what the hell la?? is there no any decent guy left in this world? are you guys really that horny, pervert? please la, leave us girls alone. we need our privacy. those actions are sooooo immoral ok. if you get caught, you're sooo dead meat!! we girls will kick your ass, and no mercy will be given! i really hate perverts ok! i hope you will be punish by God! uurrrgghhh im reaaallyy pissed off rite now! hate you hate you hate you! becoz of your actions, there's no freedom for girls anymore, even in our own room, thanks to you! *kalo da miang sgt, g la kawen bongok!* uurrgghh my heart still burning with anger. but remember this, to those perverts, you may walk away today, but in afterlife, you will never get away, as God knew every our actions. 

and to all the girls, be careful out there. perverts and 'animals' are everywhere. becoz of these incidents, men cannot be trusted anymore! i myself must be careful...

After 5 Months...

woooowwww nearly after 5 months i havent post anything in my blog. *fuuuuhhhhh tiup and buang sume habuk2 kt blog ni =D* well, lets cut to the chase, in 5 months, actually i got nothing to tell really, since i only stayed home, dont have job and all, havent gone on any vacations. just few events happened in those time, like my cousin's engagement, and my sister got engaged too! *at laaaasssttt* then came the greatest month of Islam, Ramadhan. after a month of fasting, then all muslims in the world celebrated Hari Raya Aidilfitri, where all my families visited each other, forgiving each other. but the most important during raya is, FOOOOODDD!! rendang, lontong, dendeng, lemang, ketupat. *punca berat naik (-_-')* then after 2 weeks raya, the time has finally come. on 2nd september 2012, my holidays and lazying time has officially ended. its time to register myself at UTM skudai. *1st time berjauhan dgn mak ayah, berdebar rse nye* the life here in skudai totally 100% different than UTMKL. i have to agree, UTMKL is way better than here. the toilet is far away *bilik hujung blok, bilik air the other end* the shops also far, even if we want to buy things like soaps and all, the nearest shopping mall is jusco tmn universiti. but to get there is kinda complicated, since theres no taxi here, we have to call them. having a car make our lives easier. *of coz la kn, senang nk kuar* whatever it is, if my sis can survive here for 5 years. then i should be able to cope here for 3 years *i think* well, i think that should be enough to summarize the missing 5 months. till next time *bila la tu agak nye, mood nk update blog xde lg ni*

p/s: hoping to be the best here, change myself to be a better person~

*some of the pics during raya*

my cousins on mom side

my wan, mom and her sisters

my family with my grandparent on my dad side

my lovely family

my sis, bro and me

grey day! (sis, cousin, me)

27 April 2012...

27 april 2012 is like the day i shud appreciate. why?? bcoz its my dearest mom's bufday!! 


to mom: i love you always, and thank you for everything you have done in my life. in my heart, its always occupied by you and dad. you two shall never leave my heart. ^_^

and hari ni gk la result sem last keluar. so it shall be my present to mom. hehe. alhamdulillah, result ak maintain, and CGPA pn ok. thanx to all my frens and lecturers especially, as they helped me through diploma. thanx to them too, they gave me good grades too. haha. 

what im gonna do now?? beats me. skrg ni still tgh mencari keje lg ni. company RnZ and technip xnk amik walaupun da anta resume. alasan dorg, dorg tgk result ak ok, and dorg tau ak nk keje kejap je, so dorg pn xnk amik. so better cari keje bese je la. looks like not my rezeki utk keje bhgn civil, not yet maybe. tp yg payah nye, my mom tak encourage me to work. die lg rela ak dok umh je. errgghh tak mau ak, makin 'sehat' klu dok umh for another 4 months. haha. tp bila fikir balik, nk keje takut, sbb x pnah keje before ni. hehe.

ohh well. life's go on, and i shud go on too. so again, hepi bufday to mom! alhamdulillah my result is ok. and still looking for job. wish me luck! =)

present!!

oh yeah!! at last, my dad bought me a DSLR camera, nikon D3100!! i hav wanted it since last year or the year before!! after grad diploma and with my extraordinary results (extraordinary la sgt~~), my dad agreed to buy me one. thanx dad!! love you!! but the thing is, my passionate and my excitement for the camera have gone. before this, i reaaallyyy want a DSLR camera sooo bad. now lately, when the camera is in my hand, i dont feel the same excitement. of coz i feel happy and appreciate it, but the feeling to capture a pic has gone. i really need to find that excitement back. well anywho!! whatever it is, i am happy!!!

goodbye...

'goodbye' is the hardest word to say to friends isnt it?? dats how  i feel when im bout to leave college. rasa sgt2 sedih bila nk berpisah dgn kawan2. masing2 dgn haluan masing2. there some of my friends might head to the same place as i am, so we might see each other again. but some head to other places, dat people i will miss. 3 years just flew like dat. its just to sad. gonna miss the time we spent together. gonna miss my friends. gonna miss the life at college. dunno how to express this sadness. so everyone, i wanna apologize if i ever hurt your feelings. hope we meet each other again. hope our friendship last forever.....

*LOVE YOU GUYS AND GONNA MISS YOU*

*DUYA, FARA, LINDA, SUE, AS, JIHA, ZARUL, INTAN*

meet de voguess!!

-kiela, astina, zarul, duya, intan, suhaila, jiha, wani-

malam pra graduan 2012.

almost like prom night. the theme was ballroom. no wonder sume nye hot meletop kn??

especially girls from the above. well, meet my girlfrens, de voguess!! (name tu pelik kn?? saje suka-suki)
that night, everyone was the hottest!! only me yg bese2 je. huhu.

from the pic above, guess who the candidates for queen of the nite??

it's duya, sue, and jiha!!

although they didnt win, but they still hot!! hehe.

wanna know who won??

eyeen said!! (the white-dress gal in pic below)

-aili, sara, wani, eyeen, fatin, duya, rabie-

mlm tu mmg sume hot2 belaka la. ye la, bila lg nk over2 kn? haha.

oh, pic atas ni my classmates (girls) yg pegi mlm tu. 

well, dat wud be my first dinner, but not sure it wud last time or not, coz there might be another dinner

time degree nnt kn?? hehe.

there's too many pics of that nite, but the line is so slow to upload all.

all i can say is, all girls were FABULOUS and all guys were SMART dat nite.

dats all. see ya later. peace!! =D

final exams!!!

final exam is here!!! it's time to crush, to push our brain to the limits. this is FINAL exam for FINAL sem of FINAL year. then, off to degree!! (but not until september la. huhu)

gotta stay focus on exams (but why are you online now wani???)

put aside ur probs for now, and do what you can for exam. score the highest as you can, so that ur parent can be proud of you (this is what motivates me every sem, making mom and dad proud of my results, making them happy).

but then again, the closer the final paper, the more sad im feeling, coz we're going to grad.

and some of my friends will be going on their own ways, and we might not able to see each other

again. im gonna miss our moments together. but to those who will be going to the same

place as im going, we'll meet again in future!!

well, this is all i can say. wish me luck for my final exam. =)

stress...

damn. so many works need to be done, so many things happened, and there are things that bugged me for the past few days. 

first! work work work! with project need to be done by next week, and we have done it, like 35% only. damn. dunno if we can make it or not. like it or not, we have to finish it by time, or we might fail this subject. plus with other assignments: lab report, highway assignment, management assignment. there other things need to be done too, like documents for UPU, later application for MARA and JPA. what else?? oh yeah, final's coming up! stress~~
2nd! 24th & 25th feb was AMAZING! why?? becoz my 2 gud friends came to KL, after few months havent seen each other. who are they?? of course linda and fara! with fara linda sue as duya jiha intan zarul, we went to seoul garden, karaoke, taman layang2, ikea, the curve. we did what we havent done before. it was awesome!! eventhough it was for short time, but i'll cherish our moment together.
3rd! what things bugged me for few days?? its a secret. no one can help, but myself and God. i have to face it myself. i have to control myself, forget bout it and act like nothing happened. about who?? its a secret. its my problem, struggling to be better person, to have a better life. what ever it is, i have to accept it.


conclusion: my life is complicated now! (T_T)

.......

- i'm sorry -

made my day...

eventhough dpt la webcam sekejap pn dgn mereka2 yg ade di indon sekarang ni, atliz dpt la webcam kn?? it did made me happy a lil bit, seeing them well there. dgn keadaan aku sekarang ni yg tgh serabut and kusut, seeing my good friends well made me relieved, and happy (mcm mak la plak kn). biasa la, sape x sayang kn kawan2, mesti ade rasa kerisauan sikit kt dorang kn. hahaha. well, whatever it is, it did made my day a lil bit. take care you guys, and behave urself kt sana tu, memandangkn tmpt tinggal korang tu....ehem2 ckit...hehehe. see ya!

<<<DONT FORGET SOUVENIRS FOR US!!!>>>

change...

damn. i've forgot what i wanna change in me. i dont wanna be who i was. people said just be urself, but if myself is no good to people, bringing bad things, so i have to change to a better person rite?? so i gotta change who i am now. for somehow, i have forgotten bout it. too many thinks in my head, so i've forgotten. and for that, I'M TRULY SORRY AND I'M REGRETFUL FOR WHATEVER I DID. i'm going to be a better person, just hoping i wont get off track again. *come on la wanie! berubah la!* 

<<<SORRY AGAIN>>> 

fed up...

did you guys notice, plasticine that we played, the longer we left it, the harder it get?? i think it same goes to people. the older they get, the harder their heads too. so stubborn as they get older. i maybe will become stubborn too as i get older, but i just hope i wont. is older people simply doesnt want to spend their time with their family?? doesnt they have any thoughts that their lives getting shorter, yet they doesnt want to spend the rest of their lives with their love ones?? im tired having this feelings, fed up, frustrated, sad too. i just want to spend my time with my family, even better, with other relatives too. is that so hard to do?? i do get spend my time with them, but yet it hardly A WHOLE. there always a small hole. im tired thinking so negative, thinking badly of you. because im the one that will get sins. damn. i just hope you'll change someday, because i want you in my life always. i may not show it, but I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, and no one could ever replace you in my life.

things i want and need...

what i need:
- a mouse (wireless is better)
- lappy's bag/casing/cover
- mini galaxy casing (extraordinary wud be better)
- smaller headphone (already hav one, but it's big!)


what i want:
- plain long sleeve t-shirt
- jeans (want other type of colors/patterns)
- a DSLR camera!!! (reaaaaaaallyyyyyy want it so baaaad!!)
- more flats (hehehe...)


i'll buy the needs sooner, but things i want are just things that i wish for. huhuhu...


p/s: what i want in my life is more than this, but i just cant make a list now, since i cant think what i want. of course i want more than those listed, what girl would want such a short list rite?? huhu...

trip!!!

hey guys!!

it's really been a long time since last update huh??

well, i got busy these past few weeks.

assignments, projects, tests. has been few days lack of sleep.

effects: got panda eyes, and talking nonsense due to lack of sleep.

damn.

last week (7-8 jan), got class trip to port dickson. woohoo!! it's kinda fun, hang out,

get away from work stuff, BBQ, and there's the beach!! oh man, it's been a long time

since i soak my feet in the sea, touching the sand. (damn, i wanna go again.)

kinda frustrated that sunday morning, since i didnt get what i wish all this time. but what can i do?

there's something blocking my wish from coming true, and its not anybody's fault,

it's just fate. dunno when my wish will come true. huhu.

its my fault too, for not spending my time with him. why its hard for me to get rid this

shyness in me? eventhough everyone already knew. sorry.

well, while im struggling with my inner self, feel free to check out the pics y'all.